We (a Buddhist group) went to donate money n items to orphanages today.i don't know why but they made it so that each person gave some money and a bag to each kid.to me,it just felt like a show.a circus.unnecessary n superfluous.
Just give the items straight to the organization n let them hand them out!do people actually feel good handing the things to those poor kids?
Anyway,I had to do it too if only to satisfy my parents n keep every1 else quiet instead of nagging me.it was very uncomfortable.
I wanted it to b over n done with ASAP.the first kid was ok n then to my supreme embarrassment,the 2nd kid knelt down n put her hands together in thanks.I froze.I felt like running away,pulling her up..I heard a man say in Canto 'Wah kei song ah yau yan kowtow bei lei',(wah so syok ppl kowtow u).n I thought 'what an asshole!!' n I felt angry.
It wasn't 'song' at all.if anything it made me extremely uncomfortable,embarrassed n inadequate.I only handed over 100rupee,which amounts to about RM3 n a bag,which I don't think comes anywhere near to warranting getting a kowtow.
In the end,as usual,my dudu saved the day,avoiding me from becoming completely jaded n cynical.I was really fuming over the man's comments n the people telling their friends to take pictures while they gave stuff away when my dad said 'look at how much good our Venerable has done with his tremendous effort'.n it's true.despite whatever superficial reasons these ppl may or may not have had donating,the root of it all came from his good intentions in helping the orphans n the good results from those good intentions are what's most important.
by kgia
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